Saturday, November 09, 2002

 
so sitting around sick? yeh deffinitly not the best thing to do. I mean you just sit- and watch mindless TV. it's not like haveing a relaxing day just sitting and watchin tv cause then you know that you COULD get up and do somethin better. But when you're sick- you're stuck there.. until the walls start closing in on you.

So I didn't call in to work today- b/c I was sick and slippin in and out of delerium. and I simply did not want to do the right thing and call in. wow am I rebelious.

My latest thoughts ( and tho these may be a tad depressing it's not b/c I'm depressed but simply b/c I think of these things ) what if you had (we'll go with SOME disease) and you would deffintly die in 6 months, but would appear perfectly healthy to everyone else. Would you tell people you we're gonna die? Now on the one hand I WOULDN'T b/c I don't want people to act weired around me and I would want to try and live a semi-normal life (in the process tellin everyone I much I care about them) However on the other hand I WOULD b/c I if it were me and someone I loved was dying I would want to know so that I could tell them all the things I'd ever wanted to say- and what it they died when I was mad at them or something that would suck. Now alot of people, if they knew they were gonna die, would want to live out all their dreams... like travel the world and such. But my only dream is to have a loving family and like 8 million kids- so I guess I wouldn't be able to that. Oh well- those are my thoughts. It's okay tho, I'm not gonna die yet. But still it makes you think ( and I know we all get alot of mushy e-mail crap fowards that say this but.. ) what if you were to die tomm. does everyone special in your life know how special they are? and are you on good terms with all those that you love? It would suck if you weren't. interesting. yet if we all went thru life on good terms simply b/c we feared that the person might die tomm.. what kinda life would that be? surely one with no drama! :-). good nite.
posted by Nicole 11:28 PM